Journal Entry: 26 December 2017

Some things may be starting to come together in my understanding of life.

Ha! So funny to write that out!

Maybe I should be more specific. I am feeling my way around my thoughts about life, death and multiple dimensions. It is difficult of course to find words to match my feelings and thinking. The point is that perhaps if we are multidimensional beings that are simultaneously living out “lives,” then we are experiencing all things, all events, all life – all the time.

Since I’m not very good at multitasking (all things all the time…), my attention when I am bound to Earth-energy is on the physical, emotional, and mental body that is also Earth-bound. So my attention is on what is happening to me at this time-bound moment here on Earth.

But it could very well be that if I exist in multiple dimensions, or outside of “dimension” completely, then I could be paying close attention to life in that other dimension. I could be in some other galaxy thinking thoughts about the galaxy I’m in right now and wondering if I’m writing about my other dimensional experiences!

Woman's image is repeated over and over in an infinity mirror
This is an example of an infinity mirror. This is not me, this is a woman named Tanya Hart. Her flickr photo is Mirror Mirror, CC BY-SA 2.0

I feel like I’m looking in one of those infinity mirrors, where my image goes on for infinity. The “self” in the mirror remains the same but the “image” of self changes position as it appears to go on into infinity.

So now let’s take my fear of death – my ego thinks it is the only one in here (in this body). And, I guess, in this Earth-energy, it is the only consciousness I have. But it isn’t necessarily the only ego. I may have other egos in other lives in other dimensions. I’m just not aware of my own awareness in other dimensions [just so you know, I’m not high while I’m writing this although it may sound like it]. So when my Earth body dies, my Earth ego does too because it was only serving a purpose for this dimension – the Earth dimension.

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Journal Entry: 25 December 2017

So I was looking through the choice of books by Christine Downing in the Pacifica Institute online bookstore after having heard her interviewed in the podcast, Mythosophia. I had the realization that I’ve been searching for some author to give me clues as to myself! Something to connect me to what I’m able to learn about me by being with me. All the goddesses, all the myths, all the desire to understand spirit and spiritual truth – it can all be found inside. Or, at least, that’s what they tell me.

Carolyn Myss wrote an essay on writing about spiritual truths from her perspective. She shared this on her website. There are twelve of what she considers the “Greatest Spiritual Truths.” I won’t add them to this post because I think that might be a violation of copyright [I wrote them in my journal for my use] and I think it is good to review them if you’ve not read them before.

This is one of the first times I’ve read Carolyn Myss’ writing. It is very to the point, which feels like my head after I brush my hair upside down. She has helped an enormous number of people and is one of the bringers of light and love.

Read her for yourself.

Journal Entry: 24 December 2017

Fact and factoid post alert! The following are more or less notes I made while skipping rope about the internet.

A chameleon walking up a tree branch in a butterfly conservatory.
This is neither a hoptoad nor a tuna.

Hop-Tu-Naa (not to be confused with Hoptoad Tuna) is the ancient new year’s celebration on the Isle of Man and is Celtic in origin. 31 October is the nearest Gregorian calendar date. The Isle of Man New Year was known as Oie Houney. Which I like saying even though I am probably not even close to pronouncing it correctly. It reminds me of Hoi Polloi, another phrase I like saying, and which I thought was just another way of saying hoity-toity. After that it gets sort of complicated with who originally said what.

Just a couple of those interesting facts that deserves to be typed out in a blog.

“God” as a job title not a person or deity! Love it. This is from, Do Pagans Believe in God? by Patti Wigington, 25/11/17. God as a job title! That is so funny-weird and cool. “God as a job title and not a proper name” is the direct quote. Some more interesting facts – pagans may differ from Wicca in beliefs and rituals. I did not know that. And apparently, there are people who identify as christian witches and practice magic within the framework of the christian religion. That must be a long and complicated history, given what happened to so many women (and men) who, accused of witchcraft, were tortured and killed at the hands of mainly the Roman catholic church (which I believe falls into the religious category of christianity). Funny, how so little notice is given to that genocide. Sort of like the genocide of people who lived in North and South America before the arrival of the Europeans, eh?

Wicca is a specific religion. There are different traditions of Wicca and each follows and honors the deities of that tradition. Pagans, on the other hand, follow an Earth- or nature-based belief system so there’s no deity.

“Wicca is not about believing, it is about experiencing – and thus not against science. Experience for yourself, you are expected to ask questions. Learn. Challenge the world – in the end what you come to know is what you believe. Challenge the Universe to reveal itself.” – Phyllis Curott at

I really like what she said about challenging the Universe to reveal itself. I don’t think it is really too much of a challenge. In fact, it is sort of a challenge to ignore the Universe. Unfortunately, many people are up to that particular challenge. Doesn’t take much to see the ignorance in action…


Journal Entry: 23 December 2017

This evening we gather with friends to celebrate Yule. I know it’s a few days late of the astronomical date of Solstice, but I like to imagine that in the ancient days, we celebrated for several days. I see myself walking with many people, maybe all women, maybe mixed, and we are going to meet up with other people as we all head toward the Mound – the place of reverence and reunion. The place where we connect with our ancestors and with each other. We give up the bodies or the ashes of our beloved, who are taking a different journey. We know they have not forgotten us as we have not forgotten them.

The soul lives on as love.

Blessings, S

One Tree One Forest

Journal Entry: 22 December 2017

decorative imageI didn’t have a big wicca-based ceremony for Yule yesterday but I did thank the trees, particularly in the grove in the park we frequent. Just their proximity to each other made me think of a coven and so I thanked the trees, the animals, the beings living among the trees, and the spirits unseen. It was a nice sunny day and I was cognizant of the long shadows as the Earth was at the peak of her tilt away from the sun.

Then I went home and lit the memory candle for those who are no longer with us in physical form. I made some homemade bread which we had with spaghetti and meatless meatballs for dinner. It was nice to sit with C and think about Solstice. We also drank a toast to the Yule. So while we didn’t do any big rituals, we did remember to honor the spirit of the day and to have gratitude for all those beings around us.

This leads to a thought I had which is sort of a mixture of Buddhist and Spirit-Age thought. Buddhists believe that we immediately return to the Wheel of Existence unless we are aware enough, and have meditated enough, that we can control our incarnations. So, if we immediately go back on the Wheel and if we look at the writings of Spiritualists who say that we as souls might stick around as helping spirits, we may see there is a dichotomy in thinking – Buddhists would say under most circumstances we reincarnate without any time as helpful spirit beings, while the Spiritualists say we have more control than this – more free will in the nonphysical world.

Why can’t both be true IF we consider the idea of multiple dimensions?

If we exist in multiple dimensions, we can and/or will incarnate immediately AND we will stick around because all possibilities are possible and probable.

So right now, I am dying as an old person in some dimension, I am being born in another dimension. Perhaps I am giving birth to myself in yet another dimension. Why not? We have analogies for this even in our time-bound dimension – we change to be a “new” person as we grow, as we breathe even! We are born anew in each moment. An in-breath changes me from who I was on my last out-breath. Cells within me die, others are created in flashes of instants. On another scale, we advance spiritually – we grow in spirit – and each new incarnation is a new, more mature spirit form. And in becoming, do we not birth ourselves?

Some bumper sticker thoughts:
Choose love over fear
The opposite of love is not hate but fear (the Dalai Lama?)
You have free will – choose love over fear

Happy Winter Solstice to all. The light returns to warm us once again!

Blessings, S

One Tree One Forest

PS – I’ve decided to stop reading the P’s book. It could very well be that the editor just did a sloppy job putting the book together, but there are inconsistencies that really throw me off. Plus, I scanned some other pages and they talk a lot about hetero sex, which I am definitely not into in the slightest. Time to let the book go. I’ll put it in some book sale and maybe someone else will get some ideas from it. Hopefully, good ideas.

Journal Entry: 20 December 2017

decorative imageI had a dream last night where I needed to remain hidden or incognito so I wasn’t captured. This is a recurring theme in my dreams – being captured, escaping, and being on the run. But last night at least, there was no fear. It was more like a game and I was very powerful. I might get caught but I could always escape.

The dream involved men who were maybe from Mexico (?) – perhaps with Spanish and/or indigenous backgrounds. Not sure why. Maybe something I saw on TV or had been thinking about subconsciously. There was one curious thing – I dreamed I was able to… ?transcend? physical matter. I could send a person through physical matter. I should back up – in my dream we were trapped in a room and other “men” (?) were going to capture us. So I lifted one of the people with me up toward the ceiling and thought about him going through the ceiling to the next floor above us and he was gone. I did the same with the other person with me. But it was also like just their clothes going into the ceiling (one of those parts of dreams that doesn’t make logical sense). Then I think the capturers may have taken me, though I tried to escape. They chased me, maybe caught me and after that I don’t know what may have happened to me. Not sure the dream went any further.

Disclaimer – this next part may be a little too violent for some people. Be forewarned.

I had a dream awhile ago in which I was one of a number of women who were being killed by having a rock bashed against the back our skulls after we were taken out into the open area near a tree. I think it was some kind of ritual. That grossed me out because I saw holes in skulls laying around [before I was killed? not sure], so the ritual killing must have been going on for some time. I wrote down this dream some years back but it’s pretty obvious that it is still with me and I can recall so many of the details. My imagination is no doubt adding to the dream scene – the man performing the ritual dressed as a shaman or priest, etc. The killing wasn’t painful – more disgusting than anything else.

So why the dream about being chased, being able to help people go through physical matter, and why did I remember the other dream in association with last night’s dream? Hmm….

Blessings, S

One Tree One Forest

Journal Entry: 19 December 2017

So if a creator being made me in her likeness, then I too am a creator being. I can make a world, inhabitants, myself. I am a creator being, made from the Prime Creator.

This is the thought I had this morning. Still having cognitive issues with the idea of a “Prime Creator” as they’ve (the Pleidians) have suggested in their book. Everything I currently believe rails against the idea of a single entity and yet, can I truly grasp the concept of a consciousness as that which is beyond our planet, galaxy, universe and multiverse? I want to believe it is feminine power.

Here’s where the book falls down for me – at one point the Pleidians (the P’s, I call them) talk about the unity of “male logic” with “female feeling” and this seems incredibly outdated to me. Even back in the early 1990’s when the book was written, it seems an outdated way of talking about power. Could it be that the person channeling and the person editing had no other way of bringing across these concepts? Or is it MY mind that interprets this in a particular way?

Maybe my cultural overlay is so strong that when I read the words “male logic” and “female feeling,” I associated it with this dichotomy that not only pits one type of energy against another, but also ascribes certain traits to only one type of being or another. Also males have feelings and all females have logic. So why not describe it as dominant and non-dominant traits that beings of planet Earth have? Have we, as energetic beings, advanced enough (since the printing of the book in 1992) to have redefined this?

It is like the left/right brain idea which has now been shown to be a concept that doesn’t hold water? I don’t know about this book – I’m still skeptical about it. I’m trying to keep an open mind because maybe the words they use are like a bad translation – they don’t always fit quite right.

For example, the idea that if we evolve into 4-D beings, we can then be “used.” Can this be right? The word “used” is what triggered skepticism in me – we can be “used” as the conduit to get to the (special) library. For some other beings to get to the library. Again, I must say that because these concepts challenge my current knowledge of the world AND because language is limited, I may not be interpreting things correctly or as they were meant. I have limits – cognitive, cultural, emotional, spiritual.

So I think it is ok to be skeptical and to be on guard for beings that might take advantage, but I also want to remain open to things that I cannot currently comprehend on any level. Just like being a child has limits on all those dimensions – cognitive, spiritual, etc. I may need some time for things to settle, for my being to mature, for new knowledge to fit like puzzle pieces into a larger picture. Like a really, really, really big picture.

Blessings, S

One Tree One Forest