I listened to my soul contract reading once again this morning. I relaxed into my favorite chair, Jones was on my lap (he’s my precious kitty boy), and I tried to deeply relax.
I tried to just listen once again to what she was saying and what I was feeling in me. My goal for the thirty minutes of listening was to chillax – to really allow my chakras to soften. That is, my solar and sacral chakras in particular.
There’s a reason my back has been giving me pain! I haven’t listened to my body and its connection to higher realms of spirit. The pain was a clenching, closing up kind of pain in my lower back, particularly my left side, which is the side of reception. The Universe wants to be heard through me and apparently, quite apparently, I’m not open to it. I need to open up and relax my sacral chakra. I need to listen to my solar chakra and use it to help me be receptive to higher spirit, higher truths. The acupuncture certainly helped move energy and remove blockages. I am feeling better from a physical standpoint. But I think the pain will come back unless I start paying more attention to my spirit side. I feel like I do – that’s the problem! Maybe, though, I’m so out of balance that I don’t recognize how skewed things are.
As I said, I feel creative and that’s the physical, but… I don’t feel confident in sharing spiritual truths with others because what if I’m wrong? Ah. Fear of failure. Failure, too, to relax. I don’t know if you can actual fail at relaxing. Seems like you can do it or not. But it is a state of being, not a goal! Every failure, remember, is a learning experience so if I fail at relaxing – I should tell myself relax! You are learning. Life-long learning becomes Lives-Long learning. Hey, I should use that as my blog tagline! I just googled it and nothing came up matching that. Doesn’t mean its original but I think it might be. I could still use it.
So I want to get up and move around a bit. Take Polly for a walk and think about my lives-long journey. Relax into the moment, be peaceful, be happy with now. I love you.
One Tree One Forest