Journal Entry: 23 December 2017

This evening we gather with friends to celebrate Yule. I know it’s a few days late of the astronomical date of Solstice, but I like to imagine that in the ancient days, we celebrated for several days. I see myself walking with many people, maybe all women, maybe mixed, and we are going to meet up with other people as we all head toward the Mound – the place of reverence and reunion. The place where we connect with our ancestors and with each other. We give up the bodies or the ashes of our beloved, who are taking a different journey. We know they have not forgotten us as we have not forgotten them.

The soul lives on as love.

Blessings, S

One Tree One Forest

Journal Entry: 22 December 2017

decorative imageI didn’t have a big wicca-based ceremony for Yule yesterday but I did thank the trees, particularly in the grove in the park we frequent. Just their proximity to each other made me think of a coven and so I thanked the trees, the animals, the beings living among the trees, and the spirits unseen. It was a nice sunny day and I was cognizant of the long shadows as the Earth was at the peak of her tilt away from the sun.

Then I went home and lit the memory candle for those who are no longer with us in physical form. I made some homemade bread which we had with spaghetti and meatless meatballs for dinner. It was nice to sit with C and think about Solstice. We also drank a toast to the Yule. So while we didn’t do any big rituals, we did remember to honor the spirit of the day and to have gratitude for all those beings around us.

This leads to a thought I had which is sort of a mixture of Buddhist and Spirit-Age thought. Buddhists believe that we immediately return to the Wheel of Existence unless we are aware enough, and have meditated enough, that we can control our incarnations. So, if we immediately go back on the Wheel and if we look at the writings of Spiritualists who say that we as souls might stick around as helping spirits, we may see there is a dichotomy in thinking – Buddhists would say under most circumstances we reincarnate without any time as helpful spirit beings, while the Spiritualists say we have more control than this – more free will in the nonphysical world.

Why can’t both be true IF we consider the idea of multiple dimensions?

If we exist in multiple dimensions, we can and/or will incarnate immediately AND we will stick around because all possibilities are possible and probable.

So right now, I am dying as an old person in some dimension, I am being born in another dimension. Perhaps I am giving birth to myself in yet another dimension. Why not? We have analogies for this even in our time-bound dimension – we change to be a “new” person as we grow, as we breathe even! We are born anew in each moment. An in-breath changes me from who I was on my last out-breath. Cells within me die, others are created in flashes of instants. On another scale, we advance spiritually – we grow in spirit – and each new incarnation is a new, more mature spirit form. And in becoming, do we not birth ourselves?

Some bumper sticker thoughts:
Choose love over fear
The opposite of love is not hate but fear (the Dalai Lama?)
You have free will – choose love over fear

Happy Winter Solstice to all. The light returns to warm us once again!

Blessings, S

One Tree One Forest

PS – I’ve decided to stop reading the P’s book. It could very well be that the editor just did a sloppy job putting the book together, but there are inconsistencies that really throw me off. Plus, I scanned some other pages and they talk a lot about hetero sex, which I am definitely not into in the slightest. Time to let the book go. I’ll put it in some book sale and maybe someone else will get some ideas from it. Hopefully, good ideas.

Journal Entry: 20 December 2017

decorative imageI had a dream last night where I needed to remain hidden or incognito so I wasn’t captured. This is a recurring theme in my dreams – being captured, escaping, and being on the run. But last night at least, there was no fear. It was more like a game and I was very powerful. I might get caught but I could always escape.

The dream involved men who were maybe from Mexico (?) – perhaps with Spanish and/or indigenous backgrounds. Not sure why. Maybe something I saw on TV or had been thinking about subconsciously. There was one curious thing – I dreamed I was able to… ?transcend? physical matter. I could send a person through physical matter. I should back up – in my dream we were trapped in a room and other “men” (?) were going to capture us. So I lifted one of the people with me up toward the ceiling and thought about him going through the ceiling to the next floor above us and he was gone. I did the same with the other person with me. But it was also like just their clothes going into the ceiling (one of those parts of dreams that doesn’t make logical sense). Then I think the capturers may have taken me, though I tried to escape. They chased me, maybe caught me and after that I don’t know what may have happened to me. Not sure the dream went any further.

Disclaimer – this next part may be a little too violent for some people. Be forewarned.

I had a dream awhile ago in which I was one of a number of women who were being killed by having a rock bashed against the back our skulls after we were taken out into the open area near a tree. I think it was some kind of ritual. That grossed me out because I saw holes in skulls laying around [before I was killed? not sure], so the ritual killing must have been going on for some time. I wrote down this dream some years back but it’s pretty obvious that it is still with me and I can recall so many of the details. My imagination is no doubt adding to the dream scene – the man performing the ritual dressed as a shaman or priest, etc. The killing wasn’t painful – more disgusting than anything else.

So why the dream about being chased, being able to help people go through physical matter, and why did I remember the other dream in association with last night’s dream? Hmm….

Blessings, S

One Tree One Forest

Journal Entry: 19 December 2017

So if a creator being made me in her likeness, then I too am a creator being. I can make a world, inhabitants, myself. I am a creator being, made from the Prime Creator.

This is the thought I had this morning. Still having cognitive issues with the idea of a “Prime Creator” as they’ve (the Pleidians) have suggested in their book. Everything I currently believe rails against the idea of a single entity and yet, can I truly grasp the concept of a consciousness as that which is beyond our planet, galaxy, universe and multiverse? I want to believe it is feminine power.

Here’s where the book falls down for me – at one point the Pleidians (the P’s, I call them) talk about the unity of “male logic” with “female feeling” and this seems incredibly outdated to me. Even back in the early 1990’s when the book was written, it seems an outdated way of talking about power. Could it be that the person channeling and the person editing had no other way of bringing across these concepts? Or is it MY mind that interprets this in a particular way?

Maybe my cultural overlay is so strong that when I read the words “male logic” and “female feeling,” I associated it with this dichotomy that not only pits one type of energy against another, but also ascribes certain traits to only one type of being or another. Also males have feelings and all females have logic. So why not describe it as dominant and non-dominant traits that beings of planet Earth have? Have we, as energetic beings, advanced enough (since the printing of the book in 1992) to have redefined this?

It is like the left/right brain idea which has now been shown to be a concept that doesn’t hold water? I don’t know about this book – I’m still skeptical about it. I’m trying to keep an open mind because maybe the words they use are like a bad translation – they don’t always fit quite right.

For example, the idea that if we evolve into 4-D beings, we can then be “used.” Can this be right? The word “used” is what triggered skepticism in me – we can be “used” as the conduit to get to the (special) library. For some other beings to get to the library. Again, I must say that because these concepts challenge my current knowledge of the world AND because language is limited, I may not be interpreting things correctly or as they were meant. I have limits – cognitive, cultural, emotional, spiritual.

So I think it is ok to be skeptical and to be on guard for beings that might take advantage, but I also want to remain open to things that I cannot currently comprehend on any level. Just like being a child has limits on all those dimensions – cognitive, spiritual, etc. I may need some time for things to settle, for my being to mature, for new knowledge to fit like puzzle pieces into a larger picture. Like a really, really, really big picture.

Blessings, S

One Tree One Forest

Journal Entry: 18 December 2017

decorative imageI had a dream last night in which I was going somewhere for a swim in the ocean with a number of people, none of whom I recognized. I had to go down this steep, long sand dune but the water was nice. Then, they, or someone, said that all the women were going on a trip somewhere together. Either I’d forgotten or I didn’t know about it but I needed to go back to my room in a hotel and get my wallet and keys. I didn’t have a towel and was still in a bathing suit (a bikini of all things!) when I asked the bus driver, who was the woman in charge of the trip and who turned out to be my old boss, to wait for me.

I ran into the hotel but it was the “men’s” side and I couldn’t get to the women’s side where I was staying. There were many confusing corridors and elevators that didn’t take me where I needed to go. I also had to keep going around men who were standing in the way, just standing there or looking at me like they couldn’t understand me.

Then I met up with another woman who was trying to do the same thing but she had clothes on (I was still wearing a bikini, which I would never wear in waking life). We went searching together. I’m not sure if I ever got on the bus. I think I got back to my hotel room though. But I don’t know if I got in without my keys since they are one of the things I went after when I started!

Same day – 10:30 pm

We had lunch with R & K and at some point near the beginning of our conversation, R mentioned that in the past he had what he thought was an encounter with an unknown being. He described something on TV about aliens and how his experience was similar to what he saw on TV of other people’s experiences, except that he didn’t feel he was abducted (like other people in the show/documentary). He felt a presence and I think he described it as a “shadow.” It paralyzed him to sense the presence but he didn’t believe it would hurt him.

The context for R to bring this up was that he has to sleep with the TV on because, otherwise, he’ll have a visitor in his room (the aforementioned unknown being). To me it seems that the TV is distracting just enough to keep R from knowing the presence is there, but that it still is there regardless. I’d never say that to him, no need to freak someone out who is probably on the edge of it anyways. K verified that he used to awake often in the middle of the night describing this being until he used the TV method. Apparently, the descriptions R gave of this being did not sound like a more familiar presence like a relative that had passed.

I said that that it could possibly be an alien (or unknown presence), and since I can’t judge another person’s experience, I think it just as well to acknowledge that they have had some kind of interaction with someone or something that is not possible to explain in any ordinary way. I said if you think about it, scientists are discovering new species of animals, plants, even minerals (elements) that were unknown before, so who’s to say that the same is not possible for our relationships to other beings, realms, or dimensions? We tend to think everything is about the physical, but maybe new relationships are being discovered just like a new nematode or orchid or rare earth mineral. Why not? There’s so much more out there and in here (meaning internal to every being) than we can ever imagine.

Adding to the conversation, K said that it seems true that there are a lot of things we can’t explain through our current way of viewing things – just look at what we’ve discovered through adventuring into space or exploring the depths of the ocean. She said she feels there must be another dimension – she feels it.

What struck me about this conversation is that I feel it is an alignment with other events or things I’ve been reading. It is a coincidence and I no longer dismiss coincidences. I am reclaiming the word and meaning – CO – INCIDENT. An incident that happens when another one does because that’s the way the Universe works! They are the natural parallels as the “Grand Alignment” occurs over and over, moment by moment and also outside of all moments. Unfortunately, English is so puny for describing this.

What I read in BotD, is that these experiences are well beyond our cognitive minds to conceive lest we go crazy. Maybe our corporeal brains or bodies will explode with this information. Maybe that’s what happens during spontaneous combustion! Nobody ever talks about spontaneous combustion any more. Did it all of a sudden stop happening?!? Or am I so used to the idea that it doesn’t seem odd to me for it to occur.

Anyways, to get back to the whole notion of awareness – we can’t think it cognitively, we have to feel it emotionally. But in order to write down the experience as a feeling or even simply an observation, I must condense it into a cognitive form, so of course, it will be smaller than what my feeling truly is. I can’t directly relay the experience or the feeling to another person, I can only approximate what the experience is for me and try to help the other person relate to that based on her experience. It has to be feeling to feeling at some point.

Virtual reality’s hoped-for future is that a person can record an event and another person can experience it. Much of what is described are physical events centered on the five senses. For example, a skydiver might have digital sensors on that are collecting sight, touch (including air pressure and temperature), hearing (including sensations of up/down) and who knows, maybe even taste!

But would VR be able to replicate the emotion of letting go? Some people describe the experience as akin to the release that you have near or at death. These must be emotional and spiritual sensations. Can these be replicated? How would you remove the experiencer from the conscious awareness that they are using VR? It seems like that would interfere with the other sensations.

Perhaps some time in the future, VR will be so advanced that R can record his visits with this unknown presence and someone else can replay, feel, and have a conversation with R about what the unknown being is doing in his room. Wouldn’t that be something?

Blessings, S

One Tree One Forest

Journal Entry: 14 December 2017

So we are on our way back from MI and at the Holiday Inn Express. I have a little time to write in this journal. As you know, I’m reading Bringers of the Dawn. Some of it I am highly suspicious of – at least the way it is worded. I don’t want to be manipulated by someone channeling beings who say we are manipulated – that would be an unkind cosmic joke if you ask me.

My rational mind is having a really hard time grasping things so perhaps my emotional body/mind will chew it some more before seeing if I feel it is real. The P’s are saying (in the book) that each one of us can discern who is light-giving and who the deceivers/controllers are. I want to think about this.

I can believe that we are being controlled, it is pretty much evident here on Earth that there are plenty of people (supposedly people) who do it. But I have to give my spirit and mind time to expand into awareness that there are unseen others also calling the shots.

Also, I’m having a lot of difficulty with this aspect they call the “Prime Creator” – so far they’ve made it seem like an entity controlling other entities, who are controlling planets, galaxies, universes, etc. A consciousness. Using the word “creator” in this culture denotes a male being. If I am to think this through, I would need to get past this point of a “Prime Creator” and as it being a he. Hard to break old thought patterns when they are constantly reinforced in the culture. Maybe that’s all part of the control, the “Plan” of the creator entities who were themselves created. I just need to feel it to believe it. My cognitive and psychic tools are pretty weak when it comes to this stuff, but not entirely useless. Something in me is saying to be skeptical.

Blessings, S

One Tree One Forest

Journal Entry: 13 December 2017

It’s my mom’s 80th birthday! It would be interesting to do soul contract readings for all my family – if souls reincarnate together, I wonder what that would look like? That could be an interesting genealogy!

I think I mentioned before that I’m reading Bringers of the Dawn by Barbara Marciniak. It is one of her books written before Family of Light which was the first one I read. BotD has some interesting things to say. I just hope I’m not so gullible to just believe everything being written.

Then again, considering the subject matter, how would I test whether what’s said is the truth? I’m not far into the book, so perhaps they (the Pleidians) give some suggestions as to how to confirm what they say is true? This is a whole other realm of inquisition into the reality of things – that is, if I don’t have the psychic tools to distinguish spiritual truth from fiction, how could I possibly test things out? How do I displace doubt in my own ability to discern what I wish from what is the truth?

Maybe one way for me to handle this is to research and practice with the tools I know I have, that I don’t doubt I have. For example, I know how to meditate (though I’m out of practice). I  know that’s a tool I can use to help me drive off the chatter and listen to the small voice in the wilderness (of my brain). I know I have intuition and empathy – both are psychic / spiritual tools that I can develop more completely so that I can use them as tools for spiritual “research” too. Funny how our cultures’ strong belief in science influences how we talk about things. But having “proof” isn’t just a scientific principle, is it? Spirit and psyche need proofs as well, don’t they?

In the book, the P’s (Pleidians) talk about this “corner of the Universe (actually, I think they call it a sector)” is known as the “free will” sector. All expressions are “allowed,” all choices are allowed. So controlling influences have as much power as those who are not controlling. Controlling what? Controlling others. Controlling the power or energy of others. The way the P’s explain it is that energy bodies (entities) gain and use power/energy in ways different from our own. They explain it using an analogy of humans – Earthlings – consuming food as fuel. Fuel is energy that keeps humans alive and ok, that’s pretty understandable. They say that other entities have other sources of food. At this point, some humans might be scared that these entities might be into eating human flesh. Not so!

These other entities apparently live on energy generated by our emotions. The picture in my head is of an infrared device that can visually display heat coming from a living body. Well, maybe there are devices that can show the energy of emotion, like infrared does for heat. Maybe it is sophisticated enough to pick up on auras as generated by emotion. There could be entities that feed off strong emotion. If you look at the way some emotions generate physical manifestation – anger makes a person’s face turn red, fear might make a person’s skin look pale – then apply the scientific principle that energy can be transformed and that could explain how some entities could “eat” emotion.

Emotion is first a psychic energy that we transform into physical energy that we display on our faces or bodies. So these entities might take the emotional energy and transform it in their own “bodies” in order to remain alive in the Universe. We all eat energy, just different forms of it. A plant eats, an animal eats, a human eats. Then there are those other entities who also eat – and everybody eats something a little different.

And you wondered where all those emotions go? Now maybe we know.

I do have my skeptical hat on for the moment. I’ll read more and let you know what I think.

Blessings, S

One Tree One Forest