Journal Entry: 14 December 2017

So we are on our way back from MI and at the Holiday Inn Express. I have a little time to write in this journal. As you know, I’m reading Bringers of the Dawn. Some of it I am highly suspicious of – at least the way it is worded. I don’t want to be manipulated by someone channeling beings who say we are manipulated – that would be an unkind cosmic joke if you ask me.

My rational mind is having a really hard time grasping things so perhaps my emotional body/mind will chew it some more before seeing if I feel it is real. The P’s are saying (in the book) that each one of us can discern who is light-giving and who the deceivers/controllers are. I want to think about this.

I can believe that we are being controlled, it is pretty much evident here on Earth that there are plenty of people (supposedly people) who do it. But I have to give my spirit and mind time to expand into awareness that there are unseen others also calling the shots.

Also, I’m having a lot of difficulty with this aspect they call the “Prime Creator” – so far they’ve made it seem like an entity controlling other entities, who are controlling planets, galaxies, universes, etc. A consciousness. Using the word “creator” in this culture denotes a male being. If I am to think this through, I would need to get past this point of a “Prime Creator” and as it being a he. Hard to break old thought patterns when they are constantly reinforced in the culture. Maybe that’s all part of the control, the “Plan” of the creator entities who were themselves created. I just need to feel it to believe it. My cognitive and psychic tools are pretty weak when it comes to this stuff, but not entirely useless. Something in me is saying to be skeptical.

Blessings, S

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