Journal Entry: 19 December 2017

So if a creator being made me in her likeness, then I too am a creator being. I can make a world, inhabitants, myself. I am a creator being, made from the Prime Creator.

This is the thought I had this morning. Still having cognitive issues with the idea of a “Prime Creator” as they’ve (the Pleidians) have suggested in their book. Everything I currently believe rails against the idea of a single entity and yet, can I truly grasp the concept of a consciousness as that which is beyond our planet, galaxy, universe and multiverse? I want to believe it is feminine power.

Here’s where the book falls down for me – at one point the Pleidians (the P’s, I call them) talk about the unity of “male logic” with “female feeling” and this seems incredibly outdated to me. Even back in the early 1990’s when the book was written, it seems an outdated way of talking about power. Could it be that the person channeling and the person editing had no other way of bringing across these concepts? Or is it MY mind that interprets this in a particular way?

Maybe my cultural overlay is so strong that when I read the words “male logic” and “female feeling,” I associated it with this dichotomy that not only pits one type of energy against another, but also ascribes certain traits to only one type of being or another. Also males have feelings and all females have logic. So why not describe it as dominant and non-dominant traits that beings of planet Earth have? Have we, as energetic beings, advanced enough (since the printing of the book in 1992) to have redefined this?

It is like the left/right brain idea which has now been shown to be a concept that doesn’t hold water? I don’t know about this book – I’m still skeptical about it. I’m trying to keep an open mind because maybe the words they use are like a bad translation – they don’t always fit quite right.

For example, the idea that if we evolve into 4-D beings, we can then be “used.” Can this be right? The word “used” is what triggered skepticism in me – we can be “used” as the conduit to get to the (special) library. For some other beings to get to the library. Again, I must say that because these concepts challenge my current knowledge of the world AND because language is limited, I may not be interpreting things correctly or as they were meant. I have limits – cognitive, cultural, emotional, spiritual.

So I think it is ok to be skeptical and to be on guard for beings that might take advantage, but I also want to remain open to things that I cannot currently comprehend on any level. Just like being a child has limits on all those dimensions – cognitive, spiritual, etc. I may need some time for things to settle, for my being to mature, for new knowledge to fit like puzzle pieces into a larger picture. Like a really, really, really big picture.

Blessings, S

One Tree One Forest

Journal Entry: 13 December 2017

It’s my mom’s 80th birthday! It would be interesting to do soul contract readings for all my family – if souls reincarnate together, I wonder what that would look like? That could be an interesting genealogy!

I think I mentioned before that I’m reading Bringers of the Dawn by Barbara Marciniak. It is one of her books written before Family of Light which was the first one I read. BotD has some interesting things to say. I just hope I’m not so gullible to just believe everything being written.

Then again, considering the subject matter, how would I test whether what’s said is the truth? I’m not far into the book, so perhaps they (the Pleidians) give some suggestions as to how to confirm what they say is true? This is a whole other realm of inquisition into the reality of things – that is, if I don’t have the psychic tools to distinguish spiritual truth from fiction, how could I possibly test things out? How do I displace doubt in my own ability to discern what I wish from what is the truth?

Maybe one way for me to handle this is to research and practice with the tools I know I have, that I don’t doubt I have. For example, I know how to meditate (though I’m out of practice). I  know that’s a tool I can use to help me drive off the chatter and listen to the small voice in the wilderness (of my brain). I know I have intuition and empathy – both are psychic / spiritual tools that I can develop more completely so that I can use them as tools for spiritual “research” too. Funny how our cultures’ strong belief in science influences how we talk about things. But having “proof” isn’t just a scientific principle, is it? Spirit and psyche need proofs as well, don’t they?

In the book, the P’s (Pleidians) talk about this “corner of the Universe (actually, I think they call it a sector)” is known as the “free will” sector. All expressions are “allowed,” all choices are allowed. So controlling influences have as much power as those who are not controlling. Controlling what? Controlling others. Controlling the power or energy of others. The way the P’s explain it is that energy bodies (entities) gain and use power/energy in ways different from our own. They explain it using an analogy of humans – Earthlings – consuming food as fuel. Fuel is energy that keeps humans alive and ok, that’s pretty understandable. They say that other entities have other sources of food. At this point, some humans might be scared that these entities might be into eating human flesh. Not so!

These other entities apparently live on energy generated by our emotions. The picture in my head is of an infrared device that can visually display heat coming from a living body. Well, maybe there are devices that can show the energy of emotion, like infrared does for heat. Maybe it is sophisticated enough to pick up on auras as generated by emotion. There could be entities that feed off strong emotion. If you look at the way some emotions generate physical manifestation – anger makes a person’s face turn red, fear might make a person’s skin look pale – then apply the scientific principle that energy can be transformed and that could explain how some entities could “eat” emotion.

Emotion is first a psychic energy that we transform into physical energy that we display on our faces or bodies. So these entities might take the emotional energy and transform it in their own “bodies” in order to remain alive in the Universe. We all eat energy, just different forms of it. A plant eats, an animal eats, a human eats. Then there are those other entities who also eat – and everybody eats something a little different.

And you wondered where all those emotions go? Now maybe we know.

I do have my skeptical hat on for the moment. I’ll read more and let you know what I think.

Blessings, S

One Tree One Forest

Journal Entry: 25 November 2017

Note: this is a long read.

View of a river where ice is beginning to build up to one side.First tattoo. Ever. Did not hurt so much – I mean, I’ve had mammograms that were more painful! Granted, they were small. The tattoo figures. It only took the tattoo artist – Jess – about twenty minutes to complete. Taken from two ancient drawings on pot shards of Earth- and Goddess-worshipping Eastern Europeans. One is a leaping dog, the other likely a running lion, don’t know for sure…. Thank you, Marja Gimbutas!

Having a dental filling is off-the-scale more painful than getting a tat was. Maybe it was the location just above my breasts. I can see why people don’t stop at having one tattoo. Something changed when I changed my body. I can see myself getting more. Maybe face ink after I retire!

Another topic – we have our Solstice gathering coming up soon. C would like the topic for us to reflect on to be our hope for the future. What do we visualize as the best outcome for ourselves, for others, for the world, for the planet. Near future, far future. What is it for me?

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Journal Entry: 10 November 2017

A single leaf sits among the others fallen to the groundThis is a new journal I’ve decided to start after my reading by Sarah. I know I’ve started many journals and have left half-full journals laying around, waiting for more writing. This journal may be the same. Or, I may also have inspiration like I feel right now, so there’s perhaps more than one being flowing through me. I’m not saying I’ll be contacting ghosts or other dimensional beings – though I’m not completely ruling that out – but I am suggesting, maybe to myself more than anyone else that I have the ability to tap into the larger “truth” through “spirit” and that the Universe is so so so so much bigger than we’ve imagined, that just maybe this universal, larger spirit will also flow out of my head, my hand and onto these pages.

So I begin this journal listening to the recording Sarah made for me after reading my chart. My chart comes from a type of spiritual interpretation of my soul contract. My soul contract is what I’ve decided to have as goals for this lifetime and the karma I am attempting to overcome. The interpretation is based on an ancient connection between language – in the form of letters, namely a person’s name – and associated numbers, which are universal [even in our limited interpretation of universal]. Numbers serve as “seed” or core…. sounds? entities? thoughts? I don’t know what to call them yet. Maybe eventually I will be able to say what they are. Maybe I’ll help myself this way – numbers are the primal “feelings” of the universe or of spirit. Manifestation. They are seeds that manifest. OK, I’ll let that ride for awhile. [smiley face]

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