Journal Entry: 7 December 2017

decorative imageWhile I was having acupuncture yesterday, I was thinking about what I wrote in the morning (6 December). The writing I think I could use as a story for Solstice. I feel something good inside when I think about what I wrote.

What I’m attempting to do is identify the “it” of why I’m here on the planet at this time. But I also don’t want to jump to conclusions, or falsely believe that I should continue to follow this path. One thing I remember from my soul contact reading is that S said that once I began fulfilling my contract for this lifetime and using my spirit talents, it would feel good, it would feel like it flows. Well, writing what I did yesterday – using an existing myth and pulling it in to these times feels good. It feels satisfying. Maybe because it is that time of year when the xmas stuff is being pushed heavily upon us, I feel like following this path is liked opening a present. Like I’ve been given a gift and now I get to open it! It is exciting anticipating what it might be.

I wonder if this might be the path to take? Could this path allow me to share my talents? Help others find theirs? One of the things that’s left as a question after my reading is – what is a spiritual truth? What or how will I know it? How do I talk about it? How do I share it? And then how do I not place expectations upon others to do something with it?

I’ve already decided that I need to write my blog posts as if I were the only one seeing them, or maybe a group of friends seeing them. Maybe I just need to write without expectation. Just write what’s coming to mind, no matter how I think it looks to others. Let the Universe take care of the rest.

Just a note to address later – several times now I’ve awakened in the night when someone calls out my name. Often it is a male voice. I also see glimpses of things out the corners of my eyes. It could be that these new, bigger glasses I’m wearing reflect more of what’s going on behind me. But I know that there are occasions when there’s nothing moving behind me! I’ll have to keep tabs on all of this. It doesn’t weird me out, just makes me curious.

Blessings, S

Reminder: I am willing to create my reality.

Journal Entry: 10 November 2017

A single leaf sits among the others fallen to the groundThis is a new journal I’ve decided to start after my reading by Sarah. I know I’ve started many journals and have left half-full journals laying around, waiting for more writing. This journal may be the same. Or, I may also have inspiration like I feel right now, so there’s perhaps more than one being flowing through me. I’m not saying I’ll be contacting ghosts or other dimensional beings – though I’m not completely ruling that out – but I am suggesting, maybe to myself more than anyone else that I have the ability to tap into the larger “truth” through “spirit” and that the Universe is so so so so much bigger than we’ve imagined, that just maybe this universal, larger spirit will also flow out of my head, my hand and onto these pages.

So I begin this journal listening to the recording Sarah made for me after reading my chart. My chart comes from a type of spiritual interpretation of my soul contract. My soul contract is what I’ve decided to have as goals for this lifetime and the karma I am attempting to overcome. The interpretation is based on an ancient connection between language – in the form of letters, namely a person’s name – and associated numbers, which are universal [even in our limited interpretation of universal]. Numbers serve as “seed” or core…. sounds? entities? thoughts? I don’t know what to call them yet. Maybe eventually I will be able to say what they are. Maybe I’ll help myself this way – numbers are the primal “feelings” of the universe or of spirit. Manifestation. They are seeds that manifest. OK, I’ll let that ride for awhile. [smiley face]

Continue reading Journal Entry: 10 November 2017