Journal Entry: 18 December 2017

decorative imageI had a dream last night in which I was going somewhere for a swim in the ocean with a number of people, none of whom I recognized. I had to go down this steep, long sand dune but the water was nice. Then, they, or someone, said that all the women were going on a trip somewhere together. Either I’d forgotten or I didn’t know about it but I needed to go back to my room in a hotel and get my wallet and keys. I didn’t have a towel and was still in a bathing suit (a bikini of all things!) when I asked the bus driver, who was the woman in charge of the trip and who turned out to be my old boss, to wait for me.

I ran into the hotel but it was the “men’s” side and I couldn’t get to the women’s side where I was staying. There were many confusing corridors and elevators that didn’t take me where I needed to go. I also had to keep going around men who were standing in the way, just standing there or looking at me like they couldn’t understand me.

Then I met up with another woman who was trying to do the same thing but she had clothes on (I was still wearing a bikini, which I would never wear in waking life). We went searching together. I’m not sure if I ever got on the bus. I think I got back to my hotel room though. But I don’t know if I got in without my keys since they are one of the things I went after when I started!

Same day – 10:30 pm

We had lunch with R & K and at some point near the beginning of our conversation, R mentioned that in the past he had what he thought was an encounter with an unknown being. He described something on TV about aliens and how his experience was similar to what he saw on TV of other people’s experiences, except that he didn’t feel he was abducted (like other people in the show/documentary). He felt a presence and I think he described it as a “shadow.” It paralyzed him to sense the presence but he didn’t believe it would hurt him.

The context for R to bring this up was that he has to sleep with the TV on because, otherwise, he’ll have a visitor in his room (the aforementioned unknown being). To me it seems that the TV is distracting just enough to keep R from knowing the presence is there, but that it still is there regardless. I’d never say that to him, no need to freak someone out who is probably on the edge of it anyways. K verified that he used to awake often in the middle of the night describing this being until he used the TV method. Apparently, the descriptions R gave of this being did not sound like a more familiar presence like a relative that had passed.

I said that that it could possibly be an alien (or unknown presence), and since I can’t judge another person’s experience, I think it just as well to acknowledge that they have had some kind of interaction with someone or something that is not possible to explain in any ordinary way. I said if you think about it, scientists are discovering new species of animals, plants, even minerals (elements) that were unknown before, so who’s to say that the same is not possible for our relationships to other beings, realms, or dimensions? We tend to think everything is about the physical, but maybe new relationships are being discovered just like a new nematode or orchid or rare earth mineral. Why not? There’s so much more out there and in here (meaning internal to every being) than we can ever imagine.

Adding to the conversation, K said that it seems true that there are a lot of things we can’t explain through our current way of viewing things – just look at what we’ve discovered through adventuring into space or exploring the depths of the ocean. She said she feels there must be another dimension – she feels it.

What struck me about this conversation is that I feel it is an alignment with other events or things I’ve been reading. It is a coincidence and I no longer dismiss coincidences. I am reclaiming the word and meaning – CO – INCIDENT. An incident that happens when another one does because that’s the way the Universe works! They are the natural parallels as the “Grand Alignment” occurs over and over, moment by moment and also outside of all moments. Unfortunately, English is so puny for describing this.

What I read in BotD, is that these experiences are well beyond our cognitive minds to conceive lest we go crazy. Maybe our corporeal brains or bodies will explode with this information. Maybe that’s what happens during spontaneous combustion! Nobody ever talks about spontaneous combustion any more. Did it all of a sudden stop happening?!? Or am I so used to the idea that it doesn’t seem odd to me for it to occur.

Anyways, to get back to the whole notion of awareness – we can’t think it cognitively, we have to feel it emotionally. But in order to write down the experience as a feeling or even simply an observation, I must condense it into a cognitive form, so of course, it will be smaller than what my feeling truly is. I can’t directly relay the experience or the feeling to another person, I can only approximate what the experience is for me and try to help the other person relate to that based on her experience. It has to be feeling to feeling at some point.

Virtual reality’s hoped-for future is that a person can record an event and another person can experience it. Much of what is described are physical events centered on the five senses. For example, a skydiver might have digital sensors on that are collecting sight, touch (including air pressure and temperature), hearing (including sensations of up/down) and who knows, maybe even taste!

But would VR be able to replicate the emotion of letting go? Some people describe the experience as akin to the release that you have near or at death. These must be emotional and spiritual sensations. Can these be replicated? How would you remove the experiencer from the conscious awareness that they are using VR? It seems like that would interfere with the other sensations.

Perhaps some time in the future, VR will be so advanced that R can record his visits with this unknown presence and someone else can replay, feel, and have a conversation with R about what the unknown being is doing in his room. Wouldn’t that be something?

Blessings, S

One Tree One Forest

Journal Entry: 13 December 2017

It’s my mom’s 80th birthday! It would be interesting to do soul contract readings for all my family – if souls reincarnate together, I wonder what that would look like? That could be an interesting genealogy!

I think I mentioned before that I’m reading Bringers of the Dawn by Barbara Marciniak. It is one of her books written before Family of Light which was the first one I read. BotD has some interesting things to say. I just hope I’m not so gullible to just believe everything being written.

Then again, considering the subject matter, how would I test whether what’s said is the truth? I’m not far into the book, so perhaps they (the Pleidians) give some suggestions as to how to confirm what they say is true? This is a whole other realm of inquisition into the reality of things – that is, if I don’t have the psychic tools to distinguish spiritual truth from fiction, how could I possibly test things out? How do I displace doubt in my own ability to discern what I wish from what is the truth?

Maybe one way for me to handle this is to research and practice with the tools I know I have, that I don’t doubt I have. For example, I know how to meditate (though I’m out of practice). I  know that’s a tool I can use to help me drive off the chatter and listen to the small voice in the wilderness (of my brain). I know I have intuition and empathy – both are psychic / spiritual tools that I can develop more completely so that I can use them as tools for spiritual “research” too. Funny how our cultures’ strong belief in science influences how we talk about things. But having “proof” isn’t just a scientific principle, is it? Spirit and psyche need proofs as well, don’t they?

In the book, the P’s (Pleidians) talk about this “corner of the Universe (actually, I think they call it a sector)” is known as the “free will” sector. All expressions are “allowed,” all choices are allowed. So controlling influences have as much power as those who are not controlling. Controlling what? Controlling others. Controlling the power or energy of others. The way the P’s explain it is that energy bodies (entities) gain and use power/energy in ways different from our own. They explain it using an analogy of humans – Earthlings – consuming food as fuel. Fuel is energy that keeps humans alive and ok, that’s pretty understandable. They say that other entities have other sources of food. At this point, some humans might be scared that these entities might be into eating human flesh. Not so!

These other entities apparently live on energy generated by our emotions. The picture in my head is of an infrared device that can visually display heat coming from a living body. Well, maybe there are devices that can show the energy of emotion, like infrared does for heat. Maybe it is sophisticated enough to pick up on auras as generated by emotion. There could be entities that feed off strong emotion. If you look at the way some emotions generate physical manifestation – anger makes a person’s face turn red, fear might make a person’s skin look pale – then apply the scientific principle that energy can be transformed and that could explain how some entities could “eat” emotion.

Emotion is first a psychic energy that we transform into physical energy that we display on our faces or bodies. So these entities might take the emotional energy and transform it in their own “bodies” in order to remain alive in the Universe. We all eat energy, just different forms of it. A plant eats, an animal eats, a human eats. Then there are those other entities who also eat – and everybody eats something a little different.

And you wondered where all those emotions go? Now maybe we know.

I do have my skeptical hat on for the moment. I’ll read more and let you know what I think.

Blessings, S

One Tree One Forest

Journal Entry: 12 December 2017

Twelfth day of the twelfth month. 12-12-17. 12×12=144; 12+12=24, anything numerological about it?

I haven’t slept well for several nights. I think it’s the stress. I need to get to walking again. I need those endorphins and my heart needs to pump! Closing in on a difficult time of year for walking on a regular basis as we can expect snow, ice, and the ever present winter darkness. I have ways to cope, but I still need time to cope with it.

It will all turn out fine. Repeat after me. It will all turn out fine!

decorative imageSo I am reading this book called Bringers of the Dawn. They present an idea that there are cosmic hierarchies that we have no idea of; that time is not bound by thought like here on Earth; what we call a year may be only a portion of a day for others (which sort of goes along with my hammer-relativism theory I talked about yesterday).

What this brings to mind is a thought I’ve carried with me for a long time (learned along the way from others) – what we experience as a human being is different than what a tree experiences, especially one that lives a long time (in human years). And at the other end of the time continuum, a May Fly that lives a single Earth day, still experiences a lifetime (to its own sense of time). To a May Fly, humans and trees might seem to live forever.

Space is related to time as well – an ant, given its proportional size to humans, can run/move at speeds that would astound us if an ant were the size of a human. It would break all the Olympic records for all time!

We make fun of snails and sloths and slugs for moving soooo slowly – at a snail’s pace. Snail mail. But to a snail or a slug, they are moving at the pace they move! They are living at a natural pace according to their perspective of life.

An oak, a Joshua Tree, a Methuselah Pine all “move” / experience time and space at their own pace. To humans, it appears they grow exceedingly slowly. To them, their activity – growth – is “normal” and they don’t experience their time as abnormal.

It is all about perspective.

Blessings, S

One Tree One Forest